Everything; big or small will be totally different.. No more ranting face to face on my issues with mother, father or even sisters.. No one to turn to when i need a listening ear.. I cant possibly tell everything to my MIL.. All communucations will be soon through calls or sms although i hope to be able to visit them every other weekends.. This is very much needed..
Wish i have a place to call my own..
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Going swimming with daddy's family makes me missed the younger dayd where mother and father would bring us to bedok swimming complex on the weekends complete with fried rice and fish crackers for us to eat whenever we were hungry while swimming.. Hmmm.. This was one of the many childhood memories..
Elhan mateen is currently super cranky and falling sick due to teething.. Crying most times whenever others carry him even daddy.. He didn't sleep well for the past nights too.. And while i'm typing this entry, elhan mateen is sleeping on my chest with me lying down on my back.. Looking at him sleeping soundly, i wished i could do something to ease his pain..
I love you.. Elhan Mateen..
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Help is much needed.. As much as i understand that you're working full-time and coming home late most nights, i would appreciate if you would help sometimes when its too overwhelming..
Being a SAHM doesn't mean i'm free and available most times as it doesn't only involve taking care of baby belon but it involves lots of household chores and not forgetting the laundry and being your admin cum personal assistant cum financial advisor..
I'm lucky enough for having my mother to help with some things in the house.. Come july onwards, i wonder and wonder how things will be.. I simply can't request help from MIL for some things..
Nevertheless, I appreciate for all that you've done whenever you can at times..
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While typing this entry.. Im crying as i feel sad for i will be separated from elhan mateen for the second time.. Separation anxiety sucks big time!
Others may ask why the sadness when i have leave him behind before when doing decor or makeup assignments.. The answer would be because i have to and its not negotiable.. This is due to the fact that i definitely cant bring him to my makeup assignments as its just unprofessional to do so.. While for decor, sometimes the car is not available and i can do the decors and finish earlier without elhan on site..
Seriously, i understand that they missed him and does not see him much as im staying in my parents place.. But again, i wish they would have asked me along too.. I believe if they were to do the abovementioned, things would turn out differently even if i didnt follow them..
To me, he's still young to be away from me.. Furthermore, im still breastfeeding him and formula milk is only a backup..
It is indeed tiring but it doesnt matter to me how tired i am for taking care of elhan mateen coz its all worth it when i see him smiling and laughing..
Afterall, its my duty as a mother to take care of my children..
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25 October 2012 @ 3am.. I started having really bad and very near contractions.. I keep asking baby for the time and keep track of the contractions timings.. At 4+am, it was so bad that i started to feel super intense contractions.. Kept going to the toilet and start to bend myself whenever the contractions came.. That's when i told baby that its time to go to the hospital.. When we reach the hospital, we were sent to the labour ward.. The midwife then informed me that i was already 6cm dilated and that if i want to have the epidural, i need to inform fast or there won't be enough time to do it.. As i couldn't stand the pain, i decided to take it and the neccessary was done.. At 10.30am, i was told that baby is coming out and i will give birth by 11am latest.. After 3 big push, my baby boy was out of me at 10.54am.. I heard his cries and was just glad that all is fine..
Baby took him in his arms and recite the prayers into his ears.. I watched with tears rolling down.. In my heart, i thank god for giving me the strength and to be alive to see my babies.. I was super exhausted as i was doing the decor laundry when i was having the contractions so I took a quick nap before the others arrive.. One by one, family members and friends came to see the newborn and congratulate us..
3months has passed since.. Being at home seeing him grow as time goes by is great minus all the difficulties.. Elhan Mateen is my everything other than the father of my child.. For the sake of these two boys, i would go through anything for them as much as i can..
Today, he is my companion at home.. With him around, the house is no longer quiet as its filled with his laughter and cries..
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Came 2011.. Year of joyous occassions; weddings, engagement and especially the birth of my baby belon..
Second to wed was irin in March.. I managed to be at her place to witness her solemnisation to fiance, Hamsa despite helping out baby with decor setup in the morning.. Wedding reception was held the following day and I was there throughout the event.. The couple was dressed in the malay traditional outfits of the royal yellow with irin wearing the traditional sanggul lintang headgear and in black traditional kebaya gown.. Love the final black outfit that she wore.. It was something different; a black kebaya gown made from songket.. Months after the wedding, it was good news for the newly weds.. A baby boy to be in their arms by December whom couldn't wait till then and decided to make his grand entrance on 30 November 2011. He was named Haqqi Bin Hamsa.. Looked exactly like irin to me.. Congratulations to them once again on their bundle of joy!
Third to wed was widy in March too.. We were involved in the preparations as we assisted in the solemnisation gift trays and were her bridesmaids for the day.. Red and white was the theme of the wedding.. It was a beautiful wedding held at Laguna Country Club.. Didn't managed to stay till the end for her outdoor photoshoot as i have to do some errands for my mother.. I am glad i was there to witness the whole solemnisation and reception.. Once again, congratulations babe!
Then in end April, a holiday sponsored by mother to USA California; San Francisco, Las Vegas and Los Angeles.. The whole family went except for lv due to school commitments.. Ira managed to be with us till the last day of USA trip but missed the Dubai free nights due to work commitments.. Nevertheless, it was such an enjoyable trip with all the shopping and sightseeing.. I was already about 4months pregnant then so i was not allowed to take the rides in Universal Studios. Sooo not fun coz baby and ira went to most rides and whenever they are out from the rides, they would tell me how awesome it is.. Disneyland would be more fun if we have kids.. Walkimg down Rodeo Drive made me feel like Julia Roberts in Pretty Woman.. Kodak Theatre and Hollywood Walk of Fame was fun too.. Las Vegas strip was superb with the night lights.. Get to visit Grand Canyon and took the helicopter ride too.. Also, we managed to take pics at the welcome to las vegas sign! San Francisco union square, fisherman wharf and the golden gate bridge was nice and pretty too.. The best part of it all was the shopping there.. Coach, kate spade, michael kors, timbaland, forever 21, oakley, samsonite, aldo were some of the shops we spent our cash.. Simply said, the trip was super fabolous.. Went wit 1 big bag each and came back with 2 big and 1 cabin bags each!
June.. Lv engagement to Sadiq.. Can't believe that my sister is all grown up and soon she will be a wife.. Simple preparations were made for the engagement.. Mother cooked her specialty and mother in-law helped to cooked other 2 dishes.. Baby was in charge of the bedroom decor and the decor for the buffet and guest tables and chairs.. I was the MUA for her engagement while Apek was the photographer.. All went well although it was abit too rushing on sadiq side.. Insyallah, they will be solemnise this September..
As mentioned earlier in this post, baby resigned from PSA and join his friend, Nas full-time instead.. We are thankful to Nas for this job as baby needs flexibility in his job to fulfil his other job commitment as a wedding service provider doing bridal decor and dias.. We were given the opportunity to takeover the business.. Real soon, we can called it ours and a new branding will be announced.. Alhamdulillah amin..
25 October 2011 at 1054hrs.. I gave birth to a healthy baby boy named Elhan Mateen which weighs 3735grams and measures 51cm..
The pregnancy was known to me sometime in end February. I had gone to the doctor for medical leave actually. I was telling the doctor about the diarrhea and vomitting i was having when he asked if ive had my monthly period.. No was my answer to him.. He then asked when was my first day of my last period.. Answered him accordingly and was asked if i would like to take a pregnancy test since i was trying. I agreed for the fun of it.. Did the usuals of a pregnancy test and waited.. Nurse called my name, went in the doctor's office and with a smile, he said " Congratulations dear.. You are pregnant!" I was shocked and couldn't believe what i heard but at the same time i thank god for the good news. Baby was waiting for me outside the clinic but was not informed of it straightaway due to the quarrel we had earlier.. I kept quiet about it till the next day, i decided to get baby to buy me a pregnancy test kit. Tested and it was positive! Showed it to baby and he was like " Is this for real? Are we having a baby?" That moment was precious..
My first trimester wasn't an easy one.. I had morning sickness most of the days and managed to hide it from my family.. I was late for work most days and took medical leave whenever the morning sickness and vomitting was very bad. Folic acid was the only medicine i took during first trimester.. I have not gone to the gynae yet as i fear of another miscarriage and decided to wait only till i'm 4months pregnant..
Second trimester started before my USA trip.. I have not chosen my gynae yet so i went to a gynae in Lucky Plaza to have an ultrasound scan on my baby belon.. I was glad to hear him say that my baby belon is growing fine.. I was given prenatal vitamins and since then i took extra care of myself; drinking milk at least twice a day, eating for 2 etc.. We then decided to break the good news to our family by giving a dinner treat a week before the USA trip.. Everyone was excited and happy to hear the good news and couldn't wait for the arrival of baby belon.. During the trip, i was simply annoyed and got irritated by the slightest things done by my parents.. I was always reminded by baby and ira to be calm and relax.. When i came back from the trip, i have decided to go to my chosen gynae; Dr Heng (recommended by eqa) and have my monthly checks there.. He was a very soft spoken gynae whom answered my questions and advices me accordingly whenever neccessary. It was my first checkup with him in my 5th month when i got to know that i was carrying a boy inside of me.. We were pleased and thank god for the gift.. I was then scheduled for an ultrasound to check on the baby's wellbeing.. A week after the ultrasound check, we were glad to hear all is fine with the baby..
Third trimester was when all the drama started.. It was fasting month when i had my last monthly checkup during my 8th month.. Gynae was doing an ultrasound as usual; checking on the baby's head circumference, weight etc. He told.me that based on the weight which was 1.9+ kg, baby weight is on the average side. He was asking if i was fasting. When told him yes, he asked me not to force myself if i can't since it was not required.. Due to the way he said things that day, i was abit worried that the baby might be lighter than its supposed to be.. So i started to ask for advice from others.. Eqa then informed me that the sister advices me to drink 100plus.. The kiasu me heard that and ordered baby to purchase 3bottles of it.. I drank it all and was satisfied with the results on the weight of the baby at my next checkup.. It was weekly visits by then.. There was once when i had pains on my right side of tummy which was actually urine infection.. So glad to hear that from gynae.. Was afraid that it could be something serious as i was afraid it may be contractions.. I was fine after taking meds.. Then in late october, i started to have contractions and it was a very bad one on this particular day.. When to the gynae, cervix has open 3cm and was told to go to hospital.. Instead i waited till the next day as i was able to hold on.. But it was a wasted trip as my contractions were not so bad and cervix wall are not ready yet.. I was sent home and since then i stayed home waiting for the time..
To be continued in the next post....
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This is it.. I've decided to write this long entry while on the bed in between my two babies..
Lets backtrack not abit but alot, shall we? However, it will be broken up into 2 posts; one for each year..
Hmmm.. Year 2010.. What can i tell you about it.. It was the year i left Shinetown; my 4years 8months job in May for a new career in MVCI as a membership advisor.. A totally different jobscope altogether although the basics are the same.. Definitely not much free time and sometimes not enough time to do everything and clear all follow ups that i have for the day or even the previous days.. I must say it was a very challenging job with only a maximum of 2hours allowed to be logged off from the phone.. I did pull through my probation period of 3months and enjoyed it till there was a reshuffle in the management.. My previous director was ask to be incharge of business development and vice versa.. That was when in March 2011, it became a love hate relationship.. Love the colleagues but hates the management! It then became worse when i got to know about my pregnancy in February 2011.. All eyes were on me and since then, i would take every opportunity to be absent from work which i did successfully.. Hehe.. However after my maternity leave, i decided to leave the company for good and be a SAHM to my baby belon.. It was indeed a difficult decision made as i wish to continue working.. We were unable to get a suitable babysitter while to have a maid all alone in the house will be kinda scary thus the decision.. But of course, i have my other ways of income or else i will have to depend on baby for everything..
2010.. Baby decided to leave his career in property and join PSA.. It doesn't last long too in PSA as well due to the opportunity given to us in the early months of 2011..
2010 was also the year we celebrated Hari Raya as husband and wife.. It was definitely heartbreaking to leave my family on the first day to go visiting with my in-laws.. I remember crying when i saw lv's blogpost on the first day of Hari Raya.. But again, this is something that i have to compromise and sacrifice being married.. Nevertheless, we still make it a point to have the same color for my family outfits which was black then..
That year was also our very first anniversary.. Not much of a celebration but we had our fair share of lovey dovey messages to one another to remind us of our union..
It was also the year Eqa got engaged to Izan.. I was given the honour of dolling her up for her engagement.. All went well that day.. I was very happy for her as she finally got what she deserves.. A man whom i know will give his best to her in every way he can.. Alhamdulilah and i can't wait for her big day to come this November when she will be solemnise to the man whom He had chose for her.. Insyallah..
That's it for 2010.. 2011 is coming right up..:)
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Lots of things has happened since.. Be it good or bad, life has to go on right?
Since i managed to get the right apps for blogger using my S2, i believe that i'll be blogging as much as i used to previously i hope. I would love to read and be reminded of my past at times about things that happen around me and in my life..
That's it for now..
Will be back to fill you in about the days of my life that you've been missing for the past year; a summary of it definitely..
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A while later, things are not..
Is it me? I seem to be having mood swings lately..
That sucks really..
I have lots of things in my mind right now..
Sometimes, I stressed out myself over nothing too..
Its not even the first quarter of 2010 and many things have happened.
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You! My baby boy!
Despite your nonsensical jokes and the irritating tepuk tepuk-ness on my back etc, I still want you...
Amazingly, I still have butterflies in the stomach after all these years we're together.
The decision made in 2005 was indeed a right one and I've always known that you're the one since then.
I'm glad fate brought us together. The meetup in 1998 was indeed a fruitful one.
From being strangers to friends to in a relationship to being engaged to now a married couple.
Looking forward to more to's....
We will be together till the end of time...
Insyallah....
Back in 2000... when we were only 17...
In 2005, when we meet again.....
Our so called first lovey dovey pic at East Coast...
Our first Hari Raya since 2005 but second Hari Raya since 2000....
Our first plane trip in 2006...
Our first riding trip in 2007....
Our second motogp road trip in 2008....
Our one & only wedding in 2009...
Our very first honeymoon and snow experience in 2009..
I love you,,,
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Ellis, Lisa, Lis01 December 1983
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